Meet Becky Hudson. Loving wife to Dave, devoted mother to Jennifer (9), Adam (5) and Ellie (2) – and queen of self-doubt. If only she tried harder, Becky reasons, she could be a `proper’ Christian and mother! But is this the way it’s meant to be? As Becky’s diary records her daily `fails’, it also reveals how God meets and affirms her in the marvellous muddle that motherhood can be as she tries to balance faith, fears and family life!